Poems Collection
dblueholic
Overwhelmed (When I'm with You)
You're running under the sun
the ray of light is blinding me
I can't speak
Your smile steals my voice.
Am I that pathetic?
When you hold my hand I'm melting
I can't help from being tortured
by these feelings.
Am I that hopeless?
There are many paths to choose
You say we can go anywhere from here
But there's none on my list.
I'm just trying to be honest to myself
The journey is unpredictable
I don't care how far I have to go
as long as there is you beside me.
[May 2005]
A Fool for Love
This is not the first
nor the second nor the third time.
But still it hurts.
Still it feels like
my heart is being crushed into a thousand pieces.
I thought...
after being stabbed over and over again,
I would be numb.
But no, oh no, the pain still strikes.
Tears and anger become loyal companions.
More than once, more than twice,
even more than thrice, I can't deny that I'm hurt.
But surprise, surprise!
through all the chaotic emotions,
I find myself struggling to accept
and to forgive...
People say I am a fool,
chasing a mirage
and fighting for an illusion.
I stumble, fall, and get up again,
trying hard to ignore the fatigue.
People say I am a fool,
the happy ending I've been dreaming of
doesn't even exist.
Why do I even bother?
It's true that more than once,
twice, even thrice,
I feel like it'd be so much easier if
I'm being ignorant or indifferent.
But I can't be like that.
Why, you ask?
Because I'm just a human...
A human who wants to believe in love.
instead of...
It's sad when you're not here.
I feel cold and alone and... incomplete;
like the tale you used to tell...
about a bird with only one wing,
stranded and unable to fly.
It's scary when you're not here.
I glance back to find
dark emotions swirling creeping up on me,
threatening to consume...
A threat I believe only you can chase away.
How many times do I wish
for those tender eyes to look at me only,
for those smiles to lit up your kind face
and brighten my world...
How many times do I wish
for your warmth to linger,
for you soothing voice to echo
forever in my head...
Countless. Countless...
Can't you see that your presence
put my mind and feelings at ease...?
that you own the other wing
of this crippled bird...?
My heart is yearning,
my voice scratches the back of my throat.
I long to scream it out loud.
But...
No, no... I don't want to bother you
with my selfish request, my desperate plea.
And so... I whisper it instead.
I whisper straight to your heart:
stay.
This Addiction
I'm crazy about...
I think I'm crazy about...
you.
Yes, you, the one that makes my heart
almost bursts in delight.
It goes all thump thump
seemingly wanting to escape my ribcage.
This is madness. This is... sick.
I can't get enough,
I can't get enough of you.
What kind of spell do you put on me?
Is it your smile?
Is it your eyes?
Or is it everything that makes you...
simply you.
Oh... Stop it please, I'm going insane.
Looking at your picture I can't stop smiling,
grinning like an idiot.
Hearing your alluring voice makes me sigh in content.
All around me dissolves into nothingness.
In my world there's only us.
Can someone please give me some pure black coffee?
to neutralize this sugary feelings.
At this rate I might suffer from diabetes.
Ah... no, perhaps I might just die
of euphoria.
If I die I will surely haunt you...
day and night, night and day.
Hey don't freak out.
I told you this is insane.
And it's all because of you.
You and only you.
Now and Then
I was lost, trapped amongst fake smiles
and sweet poisonous mouths.
Superficial beauty, thick make-up,
they don't mean a thing for me.
Sometimes I felt so fed up,
and I was wondering if this was truly
the life I wished I had.
You weren't here, so what was the point?
I needed to find you, to bring you back into my life.
The past could never be repeated,
but the moments I shared with you are my treasure.
I held on to the memories, even though
when I did find you, you have forgotten about me,
about us... if there really was 'us' back then.
Perhaps it was just in my head.
Seeing you again is like a dream come true.
Though it hurts when
you look at me like I am a stranger to you.
Surely I'm just an old photograph slowly fading,
my existence floating between here and not here.
To me, you are the only thing real,
yet you are out of my reach.
My heart turns to you, my eyes search for you,
but yours set on another.
It is strange that...
The more I'm hurt, the more I smile and laugh
at how pathetic I am.
I will do anything.
Anything to make you look at my way.
I will be an angel, I will be a demon,
I will be anything stands out enough to get your attention.
Yes, I am that desperate.
Memories of us sing to me sweetly from afar,
telling me some things are not meant to be forgotten.
You, and my feelings to you,
no matter what I will never let them go.
Foolish it may sound, cheesy it may sound,
I care not. For I know, clearly,
now and then, I love you.
The Dragon and The Egg
The dragon is awaken.
It can feel something invading its cave,
but the cave is too dark,
and the invader is too small to see.
The dragon is angry,
thinking of the threat at hand.
It breathes its fire everywhere,
hoping to burn the invader into crisp.
The dragon is confused.
When its fire illuminates the cave,
it can see a single egg,
laying innocently near its legs.
The dragon has decided.
As it hears a faint beating of a heart
coming from the egg,
it wants to see the egg grow and hatch.
The dragon makes a promise.
It will protect the egg at all cost,
it will keep the egg safe and warm,
and it will see a new life coming out from the egg.
Overwhelmed (When I'm with You)
You're running under the sun
the ray of light is blinding me
I can't speak
Your smile steals my voice.
Am I that pathetic?
When you hold my hand I'm melting
I can't help from being tortured
by these feelings.
Am I that hopeless?
There are many paths to choose
You say we can go anywhere from here
But there's none on my list.
I'm just trying to be honest to myself
The journey is unpredictable
I don't care how far I have to go
as long as there is you beside me.
[May 2005]
A Fool for Love
This is not the first
nor the second nor the third time.
But still it hurts.
Still it feels like
my heart is being crushed into a thousand pieces.
I thought...
after being stabbed over and over again,
I would be numb.
But no, oh no, the pain still strikes.
Tears and anger become loyal companions.
More than once, more than twice,
even more than thrice, I can't deny that I'm hurt.
But surprise, surprise!
through all the chaotic emotions,
I find myself struggling to accept
and to forgive...
People say I am a fool,
chasing a mirage
and fighting for an illusion.
I stumble, fall, and get up again,
trying hard to ignore the fatigue.
People say I am a fool,
the happy ending I've been dreaming of
doesn't even exist.
Why do I even bother?
It's true that more than once,
twice, even thrice,
I feel like it'd be so much easier if
I'm being ignorant or indifferent.
But I can't be like that.
Why, you ask?
Because I'm just a human...
A human who wants to believe in love.
instead of...
It's sad when you're not here.
I feel cold and alone and... incomplete;
like the tale you used to tell...
about a bird with only one wing,
stranded and unable to fly.
It's scary when you're not here.
I glance back to find
dark emotions swirling creeping up on me,
threatening to consume...
A threat I believe only you can chase away.
How many times do I wish
for those tender eyes to look at me only,
for those smiles to lit up your kind face
and brighten my world...
How many times do I wish
for your warmth to linger,
for you soothing voice to echo
forever in my head...
Countless. Countless...
Can't you see that your presence
put my mind and feelings at ease...?
that you own the other wing
of this crippled bird...?
My heart is yearning,
my voice scratches the back of my throat.
I long to scream it out loud.
But...
No, no... I don't want to bother you
with my selfish request, my desperate plea.
And so... I whisper it instead.
I whisper straight to your heart:
stay.
This Addiction
I'm crazy about...
I think I'm crazy about...
you.
Yes, you, the one that makes my heart
almost bursts in delight.
It goes all thump thump
seemingly wanting to escape my ribcage.
This is madness. This is... sick.
I can't get enough,
I can't get enough of you.
What kind of spell do you put on me?
Is it your smile?
Is it your eyes?
Or is it everything that makes you...
simply you.
Oh... Stop it please, I'm going insane.
Looking at your picture I can't stop smiling,
grinning like an idiot.
Hearing your alluring voice makes me sigh in content.
All around me dissolves into nothingness.
In my world there's only us.
Can someone please give me some pure black coffee?
to neutralize this sugary feelings.
At this rate I might suffer from diabetes.
Ah... no, perhaps I might just die
of euphoria.
If I die I will surely haunt you...
day and night, night and day.
Hey don't freak out.
I told you this is insane.
And it's all because of you.
You and only you.
Now and Then
I was lost, trapped amongst fake smiles
and sweet poisonous mouths.
Superficial beauty, thick make-up,
they don't mean a thing for me.
Sometimes I felt so fed up,
and I was wondering if this was truly
the life I wished I had.
You weren't here, so what was the point?
I needed to find you, to bring you back into my life.
The past could never be repeated,
but the moments I shared with you are my treasure.
I held on to the memories, even though
when I did find you, you have forgotten about me,
about us... if there really was 'us' back then.
Perhaps it was just in my head.
Seeing you again is like a dream come true.
Though it hurts when
you look at me like I am a stranger to you.
Surely I'm just an old photograph slowly fading,
my existence floating between here and not here.
To me, you are the only thing real,
yet you are out of my reach.
My heart turns to you, my eyes search for you,
but yours set on another.
It is strange that...
The more I'm hurt, the more I smile and laugh
at how pathetic I am.
I will do anything.
Anything to make you look at my way.
I will be an angel, I will be a demon,
I will be anything stands out enough to get your attention.
Yes, I am that desperate.
Memories of us sing to me sweetly from afar,
telling me some things are not meant to be forgotten.
You, and my feelings to you,
no matter what I will never let them go.
Foolish it may sound, cheesy it may sound,
I care not. For I know, clearly,
now and then, I love you.
The Dragon and The Egg
The dragon is awaken.
It can feel something invading its cave,
but the cave is too dark,
and the invader is too small to see.
The dragon is angry,
thinking of the threat at hand.
It breathes its fire everywhere,
hoping to burn the invader into crisp.
The dragon is confused.
When its fire illuminates the cave,
it can see a single egg,
laying innocently near its legs.
The dragon has decided.
As it hears a faint beating of a heart
coming from the egg,
it wants to see the egg grow and hatch.
The dragon makes a promise.
It will protect the egg at all cost,
it will keep the egg safe and warm,
and it will see a new life coming out from the egg.